Tuesday, April 05, 2005

mini funk

The sun is shining, our high today will be 60-something. Yesterday was 80.

And yet.

I'm feeling very lackluster.

It blows my mind how much the weather affects me. When it's freezing and gray, I want to go to bed. Yet when it's sunny and gorgeous, I can't imagine spending time inside doing work because it's so nice out. Gotta get out and enjoy it.

I'm also feeling a little down because, well, there's no big seemingly impossible goal for me to reach this year. I mean, sure, I could write a book. That seems impossible. But it's not as all-or-nothing as the job search and the dissertation were. This is it. This is my life. And if this is my life and it's so so so so good in so many ways, and I'm still in a funk, then I'm in big trouble, no?

Not sure I should actually write this down, but I'm better off when I have MORE to do rather than less. Not so much time to think. I knew I didn't like April.

3 Comments:

At 6:16 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

remember carol berkenkotter's sage advice, it takes a year to recover from writing a disssertation, and this is just what she was talking about.

Jim

 
At 4:39 PM, Blogger senioritis said...

March/April is just a really tough month for academics. The long school year is drawing to a close but not fast enough. How many departmental battles have you seen in October? Chances are, the answer is zero. In April? Quite another matter. They may have actually started earlier, but they definitely don't get resolved in April. I'm beginning to think April should come with a professor-proof lid.

 
At 9:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have to agree with senioritis. March/April is brutal in academia. I fall into a funk every March/April and feel completely overwhelmed. There's too much to do--all the usual teaching and research, plus year-end stuff, plus, at my school anyway, book orders for summer and fall and schedules for fall and spring. In the fall, we only have to worry about planning one semester's worth of book orders and schedules; in the spring, we have to deal with two semesters' worth, on top of the usual stuff. Plus we're all burnt. Hang in there.

 

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