how to feed depression

1. Decide you're going to have pizza for dinner no matter what.
2. When S. declines because he's got a migraine, go to the mall to have a slice of pizza in the food court.
3. Go to the mall for pizza in the food court on a cloudless 80-degree evening.
4. Order two large slices even though you know you'll only be able to eat 1.
5. Sit in the food court and wonder about the other people who are eating at the food court on a cloudless 80-degree evening.
6. Go the the Hallmark store and pick out cards for important people. Later that night you'll write one out for Hillary and then decide the next morning that it's far too cheesy to send. You don't write very well when you're depressed.
7. Wander around Bergner's looking for something to make you feel better.
8. Try some stuff on and realize how big plaid shorts make your ass look.
9. Wander over to Macy's and try a whole bunch of stuff on. Buy a couple things even though a) you don't need them and b) you probably can't afford them.
10. Leave the mall as the sun's going down and realize that none of this made you feel better. But you weren't trying to feel better. In fact, you were specifically trying to feed the depression. Mission accomplished.

Go home and snuggle your doggie and tell her that you love her so, so much. It's gonna be okay. Take her for a lovely walk on this lovely evening.